The eternal cycle of meds

Posted on by Cadenza

I like when meds make me feel good even if I’m bad at taking them sometimes but I still don’t rly trust them like why do I take you and feel bleh and depression nap for a week and then miss 2-3 doses and feel great but not while taking them

I get it won’t last and should stick to the meds and I will however badly but why can’t I just lock into a high state and stay there without going supernova or some other dumb stuff yk?

It genuinely makes me want to kms but like kinda stuck in a loop here either way rn

meds work ✅

miss meds ✅

feel great ✅

feel great and wanna die ✅

reset and repeat ✅

i don’t wanna be here

Posted on by Cadenza

I really don’t wanna be here for much longer frens

I have to be bc like plans and people that love me and what not but

I am really not meant for this yk ¯_(ツ)_/¯

The meds help level me out the highs and sure I’m not in psychosis or anything but even medicated Idk I don’t wanna exist

lmao I just gotta make it for like a few more weeks then I can build routine and get new therapist

mayb that will help everyone says it will so ¯_(ツ)_/¯