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Category: sadposting
About sadposting
I wanna put something deep here
But there’s nothing to really say
I’m pushing through until the pale horse catches up with me again and one day I will not outrun it
Ya bitch is tired
But for now powering on through
why do I feel like nothing is changing and everything is different?????
do not ask about the noises pls
do not ask about the noises pls
The eternal cycle of meds
I like when meds make me feel good even if I’m bad at taking them sometimes but I still don’t rly trust them like why do I take you and feel bleh and depression nap for a week and then miss 2-3 doses and feel great but not while taking them
I get it won’t last and should stick to the meds and I will however badly but why can’t I just lock into a high state and stay there without going supernova or some other dumb stuff yk?
It genuinely makes me want to kms but like kinda stuck in a loop here either way rn
meds work 
miss meds
feel great
feel great and wanna die
reset and repeat
All this anger was once love bzzz
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
why am I like this
I can’t tell if I don’t feel real or if everything else doesn’t feel real rn
I just want to keep the vibes up ://
this has been the vibe lately
I don’t wanna be alone and isolated forever
But it’s all I know and every-time I think about any potential path out I’m weighed down by endless reasons why it’s better this way
I want love and physical connections (not just sexual) and the lack of that is killing me
I want friends that actually exist around me and not just thousands of miles away
But I think it’s better off this way tbh
oops
Time is a really difficult thing as of late ngl
Nothing feels real and I’m tired of talking to people about it bc what can they do anyway