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The eternal cycle of meds

Posted on by Cadenza

I like when meds make me feel good even if I’m bad at taking them sometimes but I still don’t rly trust them like why do I take you and feel bleh and depression nap for a week and then miss 2-3 doses and feel great but not while taking them

I get it won’t last and should stick to the meds and I will however badly but why can’t I just lock into a high state and stay there without going supernova or some other dumb stuff yk?

It genuinely makes me want to kms but like kinda stuck in a loop here either way rn

meds work ✅

miss meds ✅

feel great ✅

feel great and wanna die ✅

reset and repeat ✅

I don’t wanna be alone and isolated forever

Posted on by Cadenza

But it’s all I know and every-time I think about any potential path out I’m weighed down by endless reasons why it’s better this way

I want love and physical connections (not just sexual) and the lack of that is killing me

I want friends that actually exist around me and not just thousands of miles away

But I think it’s better off this way tbh