I sometimes feel I’ve exhausted friends, family and other resources and this is a good place ig
I don’t think it really makes much difference but I’m gonna keep screaming it at nothing
Tag: sad
About sad
can’t even tell how I feel anymore
Everything is just heavy and I’m tired but I don’t care
IS this just the sedation from the new meds or is this me adjusting to normal levels of energy?? Or am I hitting depressive lows and we’re going full circle???
hahahahaahahahaha
The eternal cycle of meds
I like when meds make me feel good even if I’m bad at taking them sometimes but I still don’t rly trust them like why do I take you and feel bleh and depression nap for a week and then miss 2-3 doses and feel great but not while taking them
I get it won’t last and should stick to the meds and I will however badly but why can’t I just lock into a high state and stay there without going supernova or some other dumb stuff yk?
It genuinely makes me want to kms but like kinda stuck in a loop here either way rn
meds work 
miss meds
feel great
feel great and wanna die
reset and repeat
me
this has been the vibe lately
That familiar feeling of sinking
I can’t seem to get away from the gravity of this void. It pulls and it keeps pulling and sometimes I manage to forget it’s there for a while but I always end up being pulled back under the collapsing soil.
I don’t wanna be alone and isolated forever
But it’s all I know and every-time I think about any potential path out I’m weighed down by endless reasons why it’s better this way
I want love and physical connections (not just sexual) and the lack of that is killing me
I want friends that actually exist around me and not just thousands of miles away
But I think it’s better off this way tbh
oops
Time is a really difficult thing as of late ngl
Nothing feels real and I’m tired of talking to people about it bc what can they do anyway